My Guardian Angel

Its the people we never thought we'd lose that dissapear out of our lives unexpectedly and without any notice. The memories that bring so much job yet so many tears stay in our hearts forever. The only thing you can think about all day is a movie playing in your mind over and over again about what once was. Every smile, every touch, every tear, every memory never fades. They are like pictures you can never loose.

The only thing your left with is one wish. To see them again, to have one more moment, one more word, one hug, one smile. One more chane to tell them you love them and never let them go. But every shotting star, every 11:11 you are left with nothing but hope. And the only time you ever see them is in yor dreams. And for a second it feels lie they're there again. You can almost see them smiling, you can almost see there fragile bodies running towards you, you can almost feel them holding your hand and saying I love you. And thats when you never want to wake up because what your dreaming is everything you want. And when your eyes open in the morning yur world crumbles all over again. As you lay there with your hazel eyes staring up at the ceiling you realize that the dream was almost a nightmare in itself. That the life your living is a nightmare with a twist in every turn. And every turn is another seond in a new day.

People say time heals everything But it doesn't. Time won't make you forget, it will only make you used to the pain and suffering. And eventually you will become numb to it. It will feel like its not there anymore but it is, it never really goes away. But still every minute is a new adventure and every adventure makes your life worth living.

But the people we loose in a way are always there. They are our guardian angels. They never really leave, they are always in our hearts.
So keep dreaming.