Holding to much in

I'm very emotional
i hold to much in

Sometimes i think
I'm committing a sin

When bad things happen of course am going to cry
but i rather my loves ones to not see any pain my eyes

I don't know why i decide to keep things inside
believe me when i say I've tried and tried

I guess am afraid of what i may find out
growing up as a child was very tough without a doubt

Am a type of person who loves to be love
trying find the special someone up above

I wear my heart on my sleeve to much i get hurt
maybe because i like it when guys flirt

The guys i choose to be around want only one thing
but because i never had someone just desired me i guess am expecting a ring

I give in to physical temptation to easy
after it's all over i feel so sleazy

I can go on for ever and ever
but honestly writing it all down is;nt going to make me better

I guess i just want to run away with all the sorrow in my life
sometimes i not going to lie i want to pick up that knife

But since i know things only can get better
i guess i just have to wait
because i know god is real and just have to continue my fate