The Me Inside

There are many things, like feelings, that i don't know
crushes, love, fear, hate, but i wouldn't show
i wouldn't show the fear inside
the fear that makes someone so strong want to hide
to hide from the grief of their actions
just to try to have the satisfaction, of holding in there

just the other day i was talking to a friend
who told me that all we had was coming to an end
the world was going to be destroyed
and i knew there would be nothing to fill the void
the void that he left in my heart
to think that he loved me enough to tear it apart
he never wanted to hurt me, he only wanted me happy
he wanted me happy enough to where i shouldn't worry

worry about him and all the problems he goes through
i still worry and still don't know what to do
i don't know how to make him happy, make him alright
i don't know how to make him stay and fight
fight away all the pain and suffering he might be feeling
he doesn't want to show it, but i wish he would be more revealing
more revealing to others, if not them then to me.
aren't we suppose to be bride and groom to be?
if we aren't then tell me now
something always falls apart and comes back together, and if not then tell me how?
how do we fall apart? how do we come back together?
if we can't, then can we be best friends forever?
because i don't want to lose you
if you leave you know what i'll do

you know how i get when i have no one there
no one to talk to, no one to share
no one to share everything with
no one to say happy birthday on november the fifth
i need you whether you want me to or not
i need you if i got hurt, or even shot
i need you in my life, please don't leave
if you do then every night i would cry and grieve
grieve over the fact that i made you go
you can say it's not my fault but only i would know
i would know that i was the cause
and the day you leave my life will forever be on pause

because i need you for me to live
i will thank you for everything you'll give
your love, your hope, and even your fears
because our love will shine, and everything else clears
i love you even though we're not together
please stay with me and be mine forever