Why does the darkness..

Why does the darkness forbid me to sleep
eyes wide open and yet so blind
confusion and pain the knife is in deep
puzzling jumbles losing my mind

why does the darkness want my being ill
appendages numb barely able to move
there is no cure can't swallow a pill
how much torture is needed to prove

why does the darkness reside in my head
glimpses of thought sometimes are clear
the ultimate goal my spirit is dead
body alive emblazoned in fear

Why does the darkness fully consume
swallows and spits again and again
wounds that don't bleed a padded room
good feelings to me seem pretend

why won't the darkness just get the heck out
all my strength gone yet still push and shove
find it's weakness of this there is no doubt
maybe love sent from above