Letter to Robin

I remember when we first met, you were just a tiny little baby boy, all wrapped up in his blanket.
I was blessed that day with your presence in my life. You were so perfect!

Ten toes, ten fingers with hazel brown eyes.
I held you so tight and promised you a life filled with love and happiness.
I kissed your soft face and fell in love.
That day you brought life into a dying house and warmth into the hearts of 4 little kids, your brothers and sister.

I watched you grow into a little boy,
sitting at the pool, playing with a toy.
Laughing, crying, singing, dancing; making everyday a joy.
Breaking things around the house
and nibbling on everything like a small little mouse.

You called me nanna and I said no
but you insisted and I allowed it so
and made a promise to never let you go.

The joy I felt from that day on was far beyond the ones untold.
Then came the time for you to go
and my strong heart turned fragile in a way no one know.
Nurses came to take you away;
I tried to stop them but couldn't find the words to say.
I felt my heart break into pieces as they carried you away
and the tears couldn't stop flowing, it even washed my joys away.

When we laid you to rest my life fell apart
and I blamed God for tarring this rip through my heart.
I know now that you are in a better place and God allowed me that grace to be your mommy even just for that while.

So goodbye my beautiful baby boy,
I know you're in Heaven playing with your toy.
Goodbye brown eyes filled with joy,
you will always be mommies little boy.

©Lameez Petersen

(In memory of my son)