Ending it!

To end it all was a decision made by me as I could no longer stay, not even for another day.
Dedicating my entire being to the life we intended building and realising half way through that I am doing it all on my own, left me emotionally crippled.
Thinking that what I have is love and that nothing could be more perfect then this, caused me to encourage others to work on issues that were aimed at breaking up everything they ever build.

Today, while I sit here, my life plays down in front of me like a movie screening for the first time. The words I love you, plays in the background like a song sang by a lovebird. As all parts of this movie comes into place, a sudden silence breaks and the words I love you fades. A shock runs through my system and reality strikes me out for a duck. I search for the answers deep down inside but could only find those words of pain. It plays aloud, as tears fills my eyes and instantly I knew that very word ever spoken was untruthful. Still today, I need to say that it has certainly been a journey worth taking and lesson worth learning.