Speaking Out.

When I tried to speak out.
It felt like no one could hear me.
I try to hide my shame and emptiness.
I try to smile instead of cry.
Nothing works.
I try to speak and all that comes out of my mouth is a giant shriek.
You told me you loved me and I believed it.
I'm done feeling worthless.
I'm done feeling like I wasn't good enough for you.
You have a new family now.
You are happy with them.
Why did you make contact with me?
I know you don't care or you wouldn't of left.
You would've tried to find me earlier.
I think about you everyday.
I think about what I did wrong to make you leave,
I couldn't of done anything I was only three months old.
Every time I think of you I want to break down and cry.
But I realized you never spent time with me.
Why should I spend time crying over you?
I'm speaking out now.
I'm telling you how it should have been.
How I wanted it to be.