Friday Night Suicide

Its Friday night and I'm all alone
feeling frightened and lost inside my own home
these thoughts just will no leave my head
suicidal feelings and wishing i was dead
longing for safety and a bit of love
but also wondering if theres a heaven above
is there anyone thinking of me tonight
does anyone know i just pretend to be alright
how can i escape from the chains holding me
am i trapped forever never to be free
constantly asking these questions in my mind
chasing the answers that i never seem to find
it makes you so lonely with no one to understand
no ones there beside you, no one holds your hand
each night i sit in my room and cry
each night wishing i could just die
i take out my safety box i need to self harm
i roll up my sleeve and uncover my arm
the razor makes one final cut deep, dark and long
as my blood pours out i wonder will anyone notice me gone?

saffie
17