A Christmas Wish For Me

The only thing I wish for on Christmas is someone to love
But that's kind of hard for lack there of
I am the only one without someone

In my small group of friends
I thought I had someone but he cheated my heart
Sending me into the dark

I can't even look at him now
As if I could allow
I'm not the type who loves to be hurt

But again...who wants that?
Now I can't trust any cat
Since they may become a rat

The pain I felt that day, felt unreal
But I seriously have to deal
Not that I want to

I just want someone who can hold me close
Not someone who says "Adios"
Then...i would think

Maybe I should just die
But I never had a chance to try
Not that I can't lie

I came close to killing myself
But I had a change of heart when I held that knife
I just want to end my life