Selfless @ 3am

Its 3 am yet she doesn't sleep...
its 3 am and she is beyond exhausted...
its 3 am she must be insane...
its 3 am and she is unable to sleep

while she lays and stares upon the ceiling
she thinks
are they ok?
is there more I can do?
what can I do to make a difference?
how can I ease the pain?
how can I find that smile?
how can I make them happy again?

how can I look after her?
is there more I can do?
how much more of me is there left to sacrifice?
how much more good is there to do?
how much longer will this hold?

friend
daughter
family
soul sister
loved
special & unique
selfless
all of the above she is

and still all she thinks is
I need to help
I need to sacrifice for them
I need to take care of them all
I need to be there for them
I need to be what they need me to be.

3am now gone and still she is awake
staring at the ceiling trying to figure out how she can possibly change the lives of the ones she loves to make them better and make them smile more often...
she doesn't care what the toll is on her as long as she can help