A Tender Promise

Beautiful ecstasy
a tender promise
of things to come
a shiny blade
shearing flesh
peace
seconds away
hope
as fleeting
as the blood
running down my sleeves
the world is spinning
i start to burn
is this it
with noone to even notice
the room starts to fade
the fires closing in
all i can think about
is hoping your happy
with him
your future is bright
so full of hope
forget about me
as i slit my throat
this is all i have left
the only thing
which matters
i gave you all i had
with nothing in return
but a tear stained note
held close
to an empty heart
this is my last gift
i give you my life
i give you my hopes
and my dreams
but it is a cursed gift
cause i give you my pain
i loved you
with all my heart
and now its time
for me to make amends
forgive me
for i have sinned
i hurt you
all the times
i was apologizing
it must have killed u
inside
to see the pain
i was in
the hopeless world i fell into
an empty world
a world alone
a place ruled by pain
and governed by sorrow
the world
of promise
of the blade