Misunderstood

I can't will us to be close
Maybe I try too hard.
The distance between us is shorter,
Yet we've grown so far apart.

I am at a loss
I feel like I tried and tried
But words are just spaces between us
And time is not on my side

So where do I go next?
What is there left to say?
When the words that I have spoken,
Just pushed us farther away.

My feelings are misread
And I feel misunderstood
The things I say look selfish
When my intentions are actually good.

How can I get my point across?
How can I make you see?
That is all it comes down to,
Is that I want you to love me.

I am sorry if it is selfish.
I am sorry if it seems greedy.
But all I am really guilty of
Is being a little needy.

It was never about money
It was never about "things"
It was never about "control"
It wasn't when I "wanted something"

It was all about me, yes,
Feelings so very left out
Wanting your love and attention
Is what it was all about.

I don't want to ask you to love me
I don't want to beg you to spend time with me
I don't want to force your heart to be open
I don't want you to give me anything

Except a part of your heart
I want to cherish my time with you as well
I want you to love Serenity and watch her grow
I want us to be just as important as everyone else

If this is me being selfish
I don't know what else to do
I don't know how else to express
What I want from you

I guess it seems so childish
To fight for it at my age
And maybe I handle it wrong
And maybe I need to change

But nothing will ever change
What my heart truly feels
Nothing can ever replace
What only a mother's love heals