Complications

I don't feel anything anymore,
There isn't jealousy, hate or anger
But there isn't happiness, love or peace either.
Where does that put me?

I was starting to deal with the pressure
Brushing it off,
Knowing you were waiting for me
But not now.
Where does that put me?

Then we hear stories of people dying
Or starving, or struggling with diseases
And I feel guilty because my problems aren't half as bad as that.
But surely I deserve someone to listen to me?
Where does that put me?

Why can't life be simple?
Why is it full of little complications?
First experience of love washed away leaving me empty,
For everyone else it will come again
But not for me.
Where does that put me?

GCSEs, A-Levels, Degrees
That's the way my life is heading
Where's the freedom? There's none left.
Just when I would most appreciate it.
But it would feel like a waste of time.
Where does that put me?

I don't want you to feel sorry for me
I just want you to get into my head
That's not something many people get a chance to do
We were in love.
You decided we weren't working
That's fine. Seriously.
It's your decision. If you're happier with him then I'm glad.
It's what you deserve
I don't feel anything anymore.