Let the rain pour

As I look back on my life and say to myself
Wow this young girl really needs a lot of help
I can't put on a front anymore
Because death is knocking at my door
My mom has no clue
Of the pain I have or what I want to do

If I kill myself that's the end
But if I don't there will be even more sins
I can't help but to let the rain pour on my face
If life was perfect this would be the case
Yolly old me walking down the street
No worries no cares

Just me and my life to bare
But yet life is unfair

I have to stay strong
For my nephew
Because when he gets older he may not know what to do
So I will teach him right from wrong
I will teach him everything
Even some songs
I love him a lot
As well as my dad
But the thing is that's why I'm sad
Daddy isn't there for me
And it hurts inside
But yet I go in public with no sign of cries

This smile that could last a life time
Is wore upon my face
If you look inside you would see disgrace
I have attempted suicide but nothing ever worked
So I'm going to stay a little bit longer in this hell that we call earth
Maybe I'm here to stay
Maybe there's a reason for me
But I know as long as my life last he won't be here for me