What should I do?

My heart so empty without love
My life filled with complications
I don't know what to say or do

Should I do this or that?
Should I live or die?
All I know is that I'm just as confused as you.

People ask me, " Why aren't you enjoying life?"
Then I say, "I can not enjoy life without love."
I feel their sympathy but I do not feel my own.

I sit here thinking
My thoughts are pessimistic
I want to kill myself
but I know there are people who care.

My thoughts get overpowered by my heart.
My heart tells me to stay alive and enjoy life.
I do what my heart says.

Now, I regret thinking pessimistic thoughts
look where I am in this present time,
I am still alive, aren't I?