Dear diary

I write to you today
for this pain to go away

the nightmare that im living
to be gone without the giving

for the days that lay before me
to no longer bring the tears
the thoughts within my head
to no longer carry the fears

times get to tough these days
though you can make it a bit better
i can tell you that i want to die
or that i hate myself forever

its these secrets that you hold
of my desires to be thin
to slowly fade away
and hide the devil living within

because it's you that trust
of all my different stages
i write to you those thoughts
their hidden throughout these pages