Some of my pain

I pretend that everything is ok, like all the bad that has happened just up and faded away.

Everything inside used to seem complete, my walls were made out imaginary concrete.

But the walls grew thin, when that happened the blood needed to pour out my skin.

After that it got worse for I was fat, in my mind that was bad a girl like me should never be that.

Then I was no longer beautiful in the mirror, one after another I developed another new fear.

Would they not like me who am I supposed to be, I got so blinded that I couldn't see.

I couldn't ever become happy, cause every time I was near it people hurt me.

So down and down I fell, somewhere I landed inside my own emotional hell.

This unforgiving land of despair, so many surrounding people at my heart they want to tear.

Then from their life took its toll, until eventually I lost my soul.

I tried so hard to love but in the end it just never seemed to work out, please now more pain is all my heart would shout.

Then eventually my heart died to, it's now just powdered ice shards frozen to reveal their color blue.

Now inside myself feeling insecure, how I wish I could let someone in save me from here.

I'm lost in the shadows here I am confined, please someone save me from the horrors of my mind.

The pain that just wont go away, I'm losing my mind is what they say..

This torture is ok no need for alarm, I can't ease it with a little self harm.

A cut here a cut their, the last reminisce of my heart from me they tear.

But that's alright that ok, for I am dying fading away.

Now on the ledge I stand as I look down at the people below me, as I jump of the ledge in my mind I softly say goodbye everybody.