I think I rather look into the past
And Cry Myself to sleep
Feeling that what I did
Was an unforgivable feet
I think I rather hold it inside
And let it out in pain
Just knowing that you�re not the same
And I�m the one to blame
I think I rather you look at me
And want to spit on my grave
Praying for my death
Every single day
I think I rather lie to you
And engorge myself with hate
Because the truth is to hard
And way to unsafe
I think I rather you smile
And you glow every day
Then be with me
And not feel the same
So I realize this may hurt you
That�s why I keep it to myself
Because in the end
I know the facts
I know what happened
I know it all
It�s just like one long game of ball,
But now I lay it for you
In this finale hymn
I think I rather you hate me
And think I never cared
Because everyday your without me
I am no longer scared
I�m not scared I�m going to hurt you
I�m not scared you�re going to cry
All I know is your happy
I don�t care the feelings I must fight inside
