So I finally got that tattoo I've been wanting. It turned out really awesome. Call me obsessed, crazy, pathetic, I don't care, but I got it. Now you'll always be with me, holding me up like you used to.
It's a "M".. yes, as in you, Lovely... in a cursivy font on the side of my left foot. The left side of the letter is open and colored purple on the bottom and red on top :-)... I hope you remember what those colors mean to me.. us...
I was gonna put it on the bottom of my foot, sybolizing how you are my support, but they said it would fade really quickly. I figured the bottom of my ankle worked just as well. It only took like 5 minutes to do, and it didn't hurt much considering how sensitive the area of skin that it's on is.
I guess you might think that it was a really dumb idea to get you permanently tattooed... By now you probably have realized that you want her more than me, and I was probably just a temporary piece of ass.. and, although I might have just been a phase for you, you have changed my entire life. If it wasn't for you... I would probably be 6 ft under the ground right now; my parents would still be beating the shit out of me; I wouldn't be able to stand up for myself; I would still be cutting multiple times every day; I wouldn't know what pure happiness feels like; I'd have no idea what love is; I wouldn't smile every time I heard "spectacular"; I'd still be that depressed mess I used to be before I met you; Most of all, I wouldn't know what it really feels like to be alive.
Anyway, I love it, and I Love you.
Oh, and if something happened on my birthday, I hope you're okay. I don't know if it was you, but in the morning on my birthday I couldn't stop crying for some reason, and I felt you... Idk if I'm just wishing it was you or what, but nonetheless, I hope you're okay.
There's a pic of it here:
http://viewmorepics.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=viewImage&friendID=473564219&albumID=815609&imageID=5961117
