Just not today

Better this time isn't that what you said?
I loved you so much yet inside i am dead,

The pain cuts through me like the knife i once used,
Your double standards i continually abused,

I don't want to care anymore,
Within me i am too sore,

I took you back, i won the fight,
I did what you wanted for one single night,

The messages came through,
I could never hate you,

They said i love you xox,
You just used me for sex,

This girl you never wanted was texting you,
What was i supposed to do?

You said you didnt want to hurt her with rejection,
You didn't care about my feelings and,

What was i supposed to say?
I didn't want to give this all away,

I love you so much how could you do this to me?
My world is now nothing you were my everything,

I got out of your bed today,
After what she had to say,
I had to get away,

You never wanted me it was always her?
I was the one who's always been here for you,

You chased me down the road,
I had nothing left to say,
I love you i love you i love you,
Just not today.