Don't you see daddy. . .?

We act as if everything is alright,
Like we are all happy and bright.
I can see through it all,
But no matter what I try not to fall.
I fake this smile,
I have for a while.
These tears streaming down my cheek are all from you,
You've caused my heart to ache, but what's new?
You've caused me so much misery and pain,
You left me with nothing to gain.
Every night I think about all I have done,
How you always curse at me saying I'm worse then your son.
You told me I ruined your life,
So would it matter if I pulled a knife?
Do you want to keep my alive?
My life has been hell since I turned five.
Nothing goes right,
Everything turns into a fight.
I feel no more love,
Because all you do is push and shove.