What's left?

I hate every little detail about my life
I'm about ready to end it all resorting to a knife
I want to die so just let me bleed
Something to live for somewhere to turn, is what I really need
I'm leaving and never returning, returning to this miserable life
again
I'm closing my eyes, the blade will be gashing my skin on the count of
ten
Feeling the adrenline of the pain from the knife blade
The blood may wash away, but we all know scars will never fade
So I just sit in my bathroom looking at the bloody knife
Then I think in my head "Is this what I really want from life?"
Crying myself to sleep night after night
Becoming so weak, knowing that I can't put up another fight
Sitting alone in the dark, pillow soak from tears
Wanting to end it all so badly after just only 13 years
I'm miserable, I didn't even realize but now I really do
All the times when I say I want to die, I'm not kidding it's
really true
After all I've been through I've finally been broken
Trying hard to not let anybody see and not letting one word be spoken
I'm alone in life because people pretend to truly care
But you know that at the end of each day they wont always be there
Some lessons in life are really hard learned
But everything to me is hard, this is the way things have turned
I don't even want to live to see another tomorrow
I'm left here by myself to drown in all my sorrow
I'm ready to leave, I'm ready to die
I'm at a point in depression where I can't even cry
I'm empty but full with sadness and dismay
It's sick when I hate to wake up to face another day
I'm at a point where i feel nothing can get worse at all
Everything now will trigger my emotions, no matter how big or small
I'm surrendering myself completely an totally to death
Because in the end what did I really have left?