Angel - Mum

As i walk along this dusty road
Thinking about your headstone
You were all i had left in the world
And now I'm all alone.
This walk will be my last
As my life is coming to an end
The journey was too hard
My heart i can no longer mend.
I can see your grave up ahead
The silent tears start to fall
Why does it have to be like this
Why did i loose it all??
I know i disappointed you
Ashamed of me you were
And i deserve punishment
For this thought to occur.
You would have hated knowing
That i was thinking like this
You would have been saddened
By what i was about to do.
So ill write goodbye letters
And leave them by my bed
And hope that i can be forgiven
For bleeding my wrists red.
And soon i will see you
If only just a glance
Cause angel you are in heaven
Somewhere i will never advance.
Hell is where I'm heading
Eternal torment awaits
But seeing you one last time
Would make it worth the weight.
Please promise me not to cry
This is the fate i have chosen for myself
No one can save me
I've left my heart on the shelf.
So i hope to see you soon
And then head to my dark eternal home
Cause angel i took my own life
And thats where I'll forever roam.