The truth...

I can't feel the same way I did before.
I won't let you hurt me anymore.
Love destroyed by your addictions.
Love destroyed by your sickness.
I hate the way you make me feel.
Its like the love I have for you isn't real.
I can't change who you are.
You can only drive me away so far.
Hatred as all that I feel now.
I loved you but don't know how.
Tears blurr the truth from me.
Tears blurr everything that I see.
I loved you more than you know.
But you let all of that go.
When you started this all over again.
Dragging my back to then.
I didn't want to be like this.
I didn't want to feel like this.
All I wanted was for you to stop.
But the habit was something you couldn't drop.
You couldn't change for me then.
You couldn't change and you won't do it again.
I hate what you've done to me.
I hate how you've changed me.
I want to love you but I can't.
Even after all these years you still don't understand.
You say that make it go away and kill the pain.
But I live my life in disdain.
Wipe my tears from my eyes mommy, make it all go away.
Tell me that you'll stop drinking and everything will be ok.
Tell me that you love me again.
Tell me like you used to back then.