Trevor. I Love you Buddy R.I.P

Every night as I lie awake
I think about the last breath I could take
I think about the easy way out
But I suck it up; I hate to pout

No one understands, nobody sees
The pain that my life has inflicted on me
They tell me to be happy,
That everything is all right

The problem is they dont understand
They think its easy; I can change on demand
I needed you there to hold my hand
But you left me stranded; that I cant withstand

My heart aches with every smile
I think in my head it must be worthwhile
I know that they all just want to help
I pretend for them, as bruises welt

I miss you friend,
Im sorry youre story had to end
So many memories, such a great guy
Now when we talk, I look to the sky

I wish you were here; I wish it so much
Just one more hug; just one more exciting thing
Just one more laugh; just one more touch

Ill think about you all the time
What I did to cause you to do this
You were a good friend, always spreading bliss
Touched a few hearts, I know you touched mine.

Ive spent so much time being mad at you
For the pain and heartache you put me through
I couldnt believe; I didnt want to
You promised me, I promised you

Now that I think about it, I cant be mad
You did what I wanted; the guts I didnt have
I need you sometimes, I hope youre looking over me
I hate to waste your time, I feel its only greed

Ill miss you forever
Ill keep you in my heart
Ill never forget
Friend till the end, forever from the start

But I hope youre happy, your memory lives on
I miss you so but Im learning to be strong.