Why oh why

Why oh why must I push the ones away
The ones I love in so many ways.

It seems that everyone I love is going away
Yes I know I am at fault it turns my heart gray.

They tell me they love me I know its true
I feel I am a friend untrue.

I have issues yes we all do
I am so insecure it makes me feel withdrew.

I have hurt all that I love
I dont know why I have to shove.

They dont have to do a thing
I am the one that makes them want to take a swing.

Why cant I just except there love
Treat it like a precious dove.

To all that hate me yes I am to blame
What I do has caused me to be ashamed.

Can you please give me one more try
To show you the tears in my eyes.

I do not ask for much
Help me please to get this insecurities out of my clutch.

Thank you to all that care
I am sorry I have hurt you beyond repair.