These memories stay with me
This trauma abuses me
These feelings I hide inside
Are not who I want to be
I wish for a better life
My hero's a blade or knife
You've said words I can't believe
And set things I can't achieve
I don't wanna feel like this anymore.
Thoughts that I can't let out
Things I'd rather not talk about
For the sake of my family
I feel it's the best for me
Choices I can't decide
Secrets I can't confide
In anyone or anywhere
I've got alot to hide inside
I don't wanna have to do this anymore.
Making my arms run red
Hating the tears I shed
Beating myself inside
Wishing that I had died
Screaming my words of pain
Bathing in my own shame
Questioning the things I'm feeling
What is life and its meaning?
I don't wanna have to care anymore.
I protect more than I preserve
I hurt more than I deserve
The hearts that I used to break
The love that I used to make
Hurting myself to bleed
The satisfaction that I must need
Leaving the ones I love
With a small note to read,
"I don't wanna feel the hurt anymore."
