I'm Fooling Myself

I just need to fool you
the way I fool myself
You just need to believe
that I am happy with my life

I never signed up for this
I never thought you'd do this to me
But now there's a past life I truly miss
I will never have it, this is how life will always be

You're the person that lifted me
When I couldn't walk
But you're the same person that hurt me
And now I can't even talk

I cry myself to sleep every night
Hoping my sorrow will end
My facade begins with the shining morning light
I have no one turn to, not even a friend

All I see is black and white
I no longer see colors because of my grayscale
My pain is seen through my eyesight
I'm constantly reminded of my relationship fail

I'm fooling myself
And I'm fooling you too
My heart is packed in a box on the shelf
Because there is nothing else I can do