More then words can say

A simple wish gone un-granted,
All I wanted was to have you to celebrate with
All I wanted was a normal Christmas, helping you with lunch and presents
All I wanted was to sit with you this New Years Eve light the sparklers and talk
All I wanted was for you to stay with me…

I know my wish cannot be granted, but it doesn’t stop me wishing.
Its so hard to say your gone, it hurts me so much
To know you were carried off by cancer and death…
It tore apart my world

You’re never going to be here to give me your words of wisdom again.
You won’t see me get married
You won’t get to meet your grandchildren when that day comes.
You won’t get to tell me what you think about a boy I one day will bring home
So much you have to miss out on
And so much more for me to have to deal with...

I would’ve given a lifetime of those last few months for you... if it meant you could stay.
I would’ve stayed by your side night and day just to hear you say you love me.
I would’ve cared for you until you got well and then forever after.
Our bond was something special, something no other mother and daughter had.

I lost it all the day you died…
Now I’m celebrating new years without you, just like I did for Christmas
And it feels so horribly painfully wrong.

I love you so much
I’m glad you’re not in pain anymore, but what I wouldn’t give just for you to still be here with me, laughing and smiling like you always did.
R.I.P mum I miss you more then my words can say