Blades and tears

Staring at the blade
wanting so bad to slit
wanting to die
wondering if I'll be missed

looking back at the memory's
looking back at my life
all the shit that's happened
no wonder i turned to a knife

how do i breathe
when with air comes pain
family, ex boyfriends, so called friends
you're all to blame

i curse at god
for all the days i wake
why bring me into this life
the biggest fu.c.king mistake.