My Ex

Everyday the thought of losing you
Is what I feared for the longest time
Now my fear turned into reality
And I can no longer say you're mine

I didn't want to let you go
I didn't want what we had to end
But I didn't have much of a choice
You hurt me once again

I gave you a second chance
Because I had hope in you
I truly thought you meant what you said
But you made me out a fool

I don't know what gave you a reason
To hurt me and break my heart
All I ever wanted was your love
But you lied to me from the start

I knew that our relationship has come to an end
Because the truth wasn't hard to see
From what started out with you and me
Became not two but three

I guess I wasn't good enough for you
But this is the decision you made
And I can't go on pretending you love me
We both know it won't work this way

It takes two people to make a relationship work
But I guess the only person who wanted it to was me
Because no matter how hard I've tried
Your eyes were too blind to see

Everday you hurt me more and more
And I don't know what made me stay for so long
All those times I would cry myself to sleep
Asking myself, "Why am I still holding on?"

Hurting me was the only thing you were good at
Because this whole time that's all I ever felt
It's sad that there were more times you made me cry
Than the times you made my heart melt

Why did you give me hope
When you knew I was just another girl?
How could've I been so blind
And give you so much of what you didn't deserve?

I'm getting rid of all the things you ever gave me
I don't want nothing that reminds me of you
Looking at pictures of us for the last time
Wishing I could erase the memories too

There are so many questions to why
Everything turned out to be this way
Yet all the questions stay unanswered
And it kills me more each day

But you know I don't regret anything
Because at one point, you were all I ever wanted
The only thing I regret is believing you
Because doing so left me broken hearted

As much as I want to hate you
For what you did to me, I know I never will
Because even till this day
There's a part of me that loves you still

But it's not the love where I can't live without you
It's the love where I wish the best for you in life
And I hope nothing would ever come close to hurting you
Because I'll always care about you as if you were still mine.