Away

Sitting in my bed,
Looking at my phone,
Angry were not texting,
Angry I'm alone.
I can't believe your gone,
Vanished from my life,
Never even had the chance,
To take back your knife.
Now your absent,
From my everyday,
Never from my mind,
But in every physical way.
You sit alone at night,
In that cramped four walled room,
As you slowly rot away,
inside your new tomb.
I didn't see that coming,
Didn't expect to learn,
That you had gotten arrested,
My lungs began to burn.
I couldn't even breathe,
As the tears filled my eyes,
I said it couldn't be true,
What they were saying was lies.
I made excuses for you,
It couldn't be your fault,
But even as I said it,
MY mouth was bitter like salt.
I remembered things you'd say,
And it all started to make sense,
But still I remained hiden,
Behind that wooden fence.
Because you meant so much to me,
This shook me to my core,
It's been a long time and still,
My head and heart are sore.
I walk around in a fog,
Words bounce off my ears,
You were someone I had trusted,
And became my worst fears.