Killing yourself is stupid
A childish idea
A thought that doesn't solve anything
In fact, it probably creates more
Pain
But I am a child
And I've been told I'm stupid
And best of all I'm mean
So bring on the
Pain
I'm going to get betrayed
And back-stabbed
Because I fell out of the loop
And never managed to get back in
Now, all I've got
Is a boyfriend
A boyfriend that I don't
Even want on some level
But now I'm too weak to stand
On my own
As much as this all hurts
I've got to believe
That I'm going to come out of this
As something so much better
And I feel like
For the first time ever
I'm saying what I mean
Another thing. Another coherent thought,
If you will,
You were right
I'm probably going to find myself
At the blackest hole
Where I've lost everybody
But I've got to say
That's where my edge is
I'm gonna find myself
And all your going to find
Is wallowed heartbreak
I can't say I didn't do everything
I could have.
I'm going to deal with my heartbreak
And I'm going to find the light
At the end
What are you going to find?
Another broken boy?
I hope not.
