Please love me

My heart is heavy
from all the pain i hide
i cant seem to beat it
although i have tried

i cant seem to fight
the sadness i feel
from multiple rejections
when will i start to heal

From divorce to betrayal
eating disorders and heart-ache
mistrust and loss
how much more can i take

it was never good enough
for my fathers attention
i couldn't be perfect
i couldn't help my reflection

my step mother took over
she fed me these lies
made me feel ugly
from deep down inside

my mother to consumed in herself
to notice my desperation
i tried to be noticed
but my actions cause more separation

my step-dad is worse
its like i don't exists
no hello no goodbye
he wouldn't care if i slit my wrists

how does one girl go on
feel self worth after the pain
its beyond me i cant take it
i feel ugly and plain

i long for some love
for someone to love me with all their heart
i just need some reassurance
i need a new start.