False pretences

I can smile like always and pretend it's all ok,
false pretences will destroy me,
but I've made it through today,

I can lie to you, like always,
pretend it's over now,
That I won't cry myself to sleep,
after another stupid row,

I can't lie to myself in the darkness,
just me and my own thoughts,
when my mind starts to process,
and tie me up in knots

I can't run from my failures,
which you so plainly see,
so i have one more question,
why's it always me?