We were never friends

My classmate,
My best friend,
My company back home,
That was then.

I told you how I felt,
Since then you shut me out,
Tried to make things better,
But now I'm just indifferent.

I know I disappoint you,
In more ways than one,
Tried making up with presents,
Yet I'm still the foolish one.

You found a new best friend,
Doing things I use to do with you,
He stares through me,
When I walk into the room.

My dad passed away,
I felt depressed,
Yet your friends giggle,
As I approached you wanting a friend.

Never knew how small I was,
Replaced easily like that,
Really wished things were different,
Now there is nothing to much to expect.

I want to hurt you bad,
With no one to listen,
The knife against my skin,
Help me forget those memories of you.

I avoided walking pass you,
Hoping it makes me feel better,
Yet I wished we could still be friends,
Guessed my wishful thinking never ends.

Alone in my misery,
I grew cold and strong,
You are dead to me,
Piecing back myself.

My best friend,
This is how it ends,
I will play your game,
Never to know each other again.