Why dad why?

I've been through hell.
I've had my share of pain,
but I'm still standing looking you in the face
why weren't you there? i always ask?
you never answer.why dad why?
now I'm a grown woman and you pretend that you care.
now i know you don't care, why pretend?
you weren't here then, why now?
just because my mother passed away?
i needed you when i was a girl but i don't need you anymore.
my mother was wise and warned me about you because she didn't want me to go through the pain she went through.
too bad tho that losing a dad, not to death but just walk away couldn't save me from that.
why dad why? i just don't understand.
its not that i care i just want and always just wanted an answer.