Heart Breaker

Feels as though I'm on the verge
Of breaking someone's heart
Like falling through a black hole
And being slowly ripped apart.

Where one creates her sorrow
Because she simply makes her bed.
And the other don't deserve
Whats happening in her head.

And I hate the way this makes me feel
As though I wasn't very smart.
Opened a relationship,
When not ready for one to start.

I allowed myself to fall
Into another persons life.
Hiding behind my awareness
That I had kids with a wife

Who needs me more than anything
Who's on the verge to crack
Who's found the grass, it isn't greener
And she truly wants me back

Will creating pain today
Lessen it tomorrow?
Will the balance of good emotions
Be sated by ones sorrow?

Who am I go govern
How other people feel

Still... a heart break is inevitable

I just wish it wasn't real.