My head was spinning
Split open, ripe and ready
My kidneys bleeding
Drinks go down nice and steady
My throat is burning
From all my favorite poison
My heart is yearning
But my mind knows that it's all gone
Looking back it all seemed perfect
Looking back, was it worth it?
Maybe I'm a coward
Maybe I didn't try
To change the way I live my life
Because I'm lost inside
Maybe I lack courage
Maybe I'm a fraud
Because I didn't do enough
To recover from that fall
My stomach's turning
My gut seems out of place
My skull is hurting
Suffering this war brain
My heart is aching
Thoughts of my flawed design
My soul is taking
It's sweet time to decide
Looking back, I should have known it
You were just so God damn perfect
Maybe I'm a coward
Maybe I didn't try
To change the way I live my life
Because I'm lost inside
Maybe I lack courage
Maybe I'm a fraud
Because I didn't do enough
To recover from that fall
Bottle it up
Shut it all off
Hope that I have had enough
Left out here
Loving mine field
Welcome to this war called love
To scared to change
To brave to fade
This is not how it should be
No adaptation
Taught a lesson
I am fine being just me
Baby, I'm not a coward
Baby I didn't try
To change the way I live my life
Cause I'm fine being s blind
Baby I'm full of courage
Sometimes I'm a fraud
Though I've still had enough
Of you're perfection flaw
