Reasons to question?

Eyes bloodshot,watering with tears falling
Mind feels dead,wandering in the past
Heart aches painfully,like my life is a lie;
Is this a dream?
Or is it reality?

It is what,it is
Harshfully this place is hell on earth
Misery in every direction my head turns,its like my gravitational pull just reveals itself to sorrow
I would like it to reavel itself to some purity,something that will keep my heart full
Not half empty......

I wake in the morning and picture myself dead
Its not what I want to happen cause I do love myself
Yet I feel like I shouldn't be alive,do to events that till this day,pain me inside;
I fall asleep at night with the thought of waking to a new tomorrow
Opening my eyes to joy,but every time my eyes open,all they see is death
So because of this,I feel like my breathe should be taken
I enjoy what I do in life,I hate what has happened to me in life,therefore I have been forsken!