I am a disgrace

I am the only disgrace there is in this family because of my choice in whom i like...
i am a disgrace to Our Father....
i cant help the way that i love guys yes...
but also love girls...
i am bisexual...
i want to stop just to keep them satisfied but isn't it what i want...
it is also a disgrace to Our Father...
so i have to change for him...but how?
when i see a girl that carries herself well and has the smarts that brings it all together..
i feel as though i am on cloud nine...
when i see a guy...
who is the perfect package...
i cant possibly chose between the two...
how do i make my likings back to just one...
back to what is "right"
and not "wrong"
for them...
or can i even change...
it's hard...
i don't like to disappoint...
and i want to do what is "right"
but what about me...?