Me And The Other Me

You believe I'm ok,
Because I show you.
You think I don't worry,
I worry every night.

You think I'm strong,
And fearless, but I'm
Frail and breakable.
You don't think i care,
Because I put up her, my shield.

You think I laugh,
Because it's funny,
It's the only way to hide it,
That stupid pain.

You fight all the time,
And it hardens me inside.
Making me break harder,
Each and every night.

You yell and scream over little things,
I try to ignore it, but it never works.
I can feel it, like a punch in the gut,
That hate that grows inside.

It makes me sick,trying to hide it.
I try to tell you, But you never,
Absorb it in, just spit it out,
At my feet so I can stare at it.

I lay in my bed, in a ball,
Trying to forget, but all i get is,
Wet pillows and staring at the wall.
There goes another sleepless night.

I pull the covers up,
Muffling the sobs, so no one can hear.
I broken not strong, I sob over and over.
Hiding my pain from her and everyone,
I put my face in my pillow.

The next morning,I lay there,
Waiting, for her to take over.
My face goes smooth and expressionless.
Welcoming, her, my shield, my body relaxes.

She wipes the tears,
And gets me up. Hiding me,
She does it so well.
I let her take control, as I watch.