Why I Hate You..

Telling me that you love me
Telling me that no matter what
You will always be there
But now if feels like
all along it was all a lie
and that you never meant any of it....
Were you intending to lie to me?
To purposely hurt me?
I'm not sure what your goal was in the first place..
but to me it feels like you were trying to find that someone to help you through your own pain and that
no matter what the consequences
were you were going to
throw your pain on someone else besides yourself.
I loved you like i really never loved no other
and i know i did tell you i didn't hate you
but know that i give it thought
i do.
I hate that you lied,
i hate that you made me believe
you really would tell the truth.
i hate that you told me i was beautiful and
never let me forget it,
i hate that you told me you loved me
when in the end your were just going to hurt me,
but mostly i hate you because
through it all
i still love you.