Timebomb

I looked into your eyes
Remembering all my recent lies
But i was afraid of what i would see
Afraid of how you felt about me

I showed no expression
In my face
It was something i had mastered
Through all my disgrace

Though the tears came
No matter how much i tried
And i let them come
Knowing you wouldnt care if i cried

As i stood there looking at you
I could see how you felt about me
It was written all over your face
Something you wanted me to see

You wanted me to feel
How you have felt
But no worries because with that
I have already dealt

But i still could find the words
To tell you why i had to lie
I wouldnt throw away your life like that
I wouldnt make you die

As you looked at me
You knew i had nothing to say
So with that
You walked away

And i
I let you go
I let you go never telling you
What you wanted to know

You wanted to know
Why i had to lie
Why i was sitting here
Without saying anything as i cried

Why i wouldnt even try
To make you understand
But if i did
Your life would start ticking away

Like hour glass sand