End of time...

It is eating me alive
the pain...
i pray every day for the Lord to take me away
cause i feel i have hit rock bottom and can't move anymore.
i am in an utter despair of wanting to end it..
to end me..
this whole life,
it seem like nothing but a game on who can stay in the longest..
it seems to be my time.
cause i cant win in this life
it is too much
i cant handle it anymore...
it is all so overwhelming..
is this really going to be the end for me...
of me...

this whole life
it seem like nothing but a game on who can stay in the longest..

am i staying in or am i out..