I'm Stupid For Staying

Despite all the drama
That's happening at school
That doesn't come close
To what's been happening with you
The briefest sight, a casual touch
Eyes get watery on cue
Tell me why I had been a fool

Can't find it in myself
To release any more devotion
I'm not one to think up a devious plan
Let alone put it in motion
So when I was unaided with the cute guy
That eyes were blue as an ocean
I couldn't stand but drop that bad emotion

How can I let myself
Watch you with another girl ?
Instead of being upset with you
I've been blaming the rest of the world
If you can cheat, then why can't I ?
My mind says do it but my heart denies
You don't know how many days and nights
I've had revenge deep in my eyes

I wouldn't do the same to you
Because I'm not cold-hearted
I would build up the audacity
But it'll deflate before I get started
Can't act like I haven't seen you
You thought you had me outsmarted
But you actually have my heart parted

Now when I see you smiling
I can't take that it wasn't even from me
If we don't even communicate that much
Then why are you so damn happy ?
You can love me when you're around
But it goes away as soon as you leave
Doing something about this comes up constantly

Deceived, miserable
Sick and tired, love is difficult
Uncomfortably excruciating
Can't you hear my heart breaking
Exhausted, over and done with
Don't give me one more kiss
I had this love created
But I just can't have it terminated, cause

I love you too much
And with one touch
And your voice melodic like a lullaby
I can't hold back a smile
I love you too much
Although there's no more trust
I just can't forget about us
No matter what damage you've done