No longer a secret...

Before we go any longer like this
I have a few things to get off my chest
I've held it a secret for too long
And it has turned into a hurtful mess

For all those years I took the blame
Made everyone believe I was the bad guy
Told them that if I was better
Then we wouldn't have said goodbye...

But there is more to the story
And we both know this
So I'm sorry to have to admit
I made a mistake, from the first kiss

I wish I would have got to know you more
And realized the person that you really are
I would have never been with you
You were not my wish upon a shooting star

I was not the one that messed around
I was not the one that caused the pain
I was not the one that ran to another
I was not the one that went insane

You ran to him four different times
You lied to me every single day
You always apologized with tears
You always held on so I would stay

I always looked past the hurt you caused
I always told you that we could fix it
I always held back the tears in my eyes
And said I would never quit

As I sat there and listened to you lie
I had so many tears in my eyes
But as I listened to what you told me
Lying again was not a surprise

You cheated, you stole, and you played me
You never cared that you tore me apart
But I always took the blame for "us"
Now you have totally ruined my heart

Trying to be with me yet telling him
That you wanted to be with him so bad
I never listened to my friends
Because you would always get mad

I wish I would have walked away sooner
And now have to go through the tears
I always tried to make things right again
You leaving, was my biggest fear

I stood there as I swallowed the lump
That ached deep in my throat
I always forgave you unconditionally
A never ending story to be rewrote

So please don't tell anyone that it was me
You know that I gave one hundred percent
You were the one that ruined us
After many years, my heart was spent

Goodbye to something that shouldn't have been
I wish I would have seen it from the start
You were the biggest mistake of my life
And you no longer hold my heart