My sweet nightmare

Anger boils inside,
sadness creeps around,
what is happening?
what is becoming of us?

falling down,
i find myself searching for the perfect place to lose it all again,
you stopped all the pain,
why are you bringing it back?

anguish washes over me,
darkness hovers around,
waiting to swallow me.

a shattered heart,
evident in the smile you see,
i try to hide this so hard,
but no longer can i deny...
everything is falling apart once more.

black silk slides over my skin; pale as the moon light shinning down,
a hint of color dances on my cheeks as the fall winds hit my bare shoulders.

unable to feel the coldness,
unable to feel a thing but sorrow;
i stand there staring at the flower in my hands.

so beautiful,
reminding me of the first month we shared.

so amazing,
everything faded away,
it was as if it were just you and me.

as the months crawled by,
you slowly released your grip on me,
leaving me alone in my world of despair.

looking up at the pale sliver in the cool night sky,
i wonder what i have done wrong.
what have i done?
was it something i said?

are our ages finally getting to you?
have you found someone else?

the rose falls from my hands,
its black petals fall to my feet,
and crimson flows from my hands.

my world is falling apart once more,
all that made it whole,
the one that fixed it all,
seems to be giving up on me.