For Eternity

"I've searched high and low.
Meeting a-holes, liars and weirdos every where I go.

None, can compare to you.
Bad thoughts at home, no one to say I love you to.

Even if it's on the phone.
I'll cry, I will cry.
Just to know the love I have for you is being taken over by the pain of you not being involved in my life.

I am only able to now trust myself.
But don't be confused, I don't love myself.

I don't love what you've turned me into.
I miss the happy girL I was when I was with you.

She will never come back, after you I have been in love twice.
They are also gone..

While being in love with either.
I was still thinking about you..I knew then, that if they left me too, I would be screwed like I am now.

Not knowing what to believe when they tell me things, and I Love You.
Trey, Richie, did you mean it.

Or is it the lost love of my life, trying to tear us apart, trying to break my mind down.
Want me to fall to the ground, crying in my hands.

Not knowing who to trust..
It hurts just as much as not having you.
I wish we'd just touch.

I hope one day, you get to read this in my letter.
Only to feel what I felt for you and still feel even without you.
Only this time, I am torn apart from being a functional human-being.

I now know that you can do something in an instant, resulting in heartache for eternity.