Back to her old ways

As her heart slowly shatters and everything around her crumbles, she will pretend to be ok.
Broken childhood leads to a broken adult, and the pain only gets worse every single day.
Dont try to console her, shes been pushed too far this time.
Though she appears to be smiling, its only because behind a mask she hides.
In the darkness of the night, the cracks will slowly appear.
She will turn to her knife for release, and wipe away the tears.
Shes fallen back into her old routine, of turning to the blade.
She hides her arms from the world as she doesnt want any attention, this isnt just a faze.
Shes remembering details of her past, that she wish she never knew.
Its too much for her, to cope she turns again to bulemia, she once again makes herself spew.
Her disturbing nightmares still havent gone away, shes tired and just wishes to sleep.
All of her secrets and her past is hidden away, shes locked it all away inside, so very deep.
Shes losing herself piece by piece, she no longer has hope.
Torn apart by all the betrayal, abuse and pain, shes finding it hard just to even cope.
Dont expect her to get better, she can never be the happy person you want her to be.
She has been tortured and hurt for too long and is an empty shell, but you dont want to see.
Darkness has consumed her, shes never going to change.
But she will never speak the words of what shes been through, she will never tell you who it to blame.